Because Shane loved Me

14 years ago today I became one with Shane. Our courtship was not a long one, dated for 6 months before becoming engaged and then we were engaged a year. He graduated from Berry in April and we were married on May 18, 1996. Today will be extremely bittersweet, thanking God for the 16 years that I had him with me, thanking Him for a near perfect marriage, thanking Him for the blessing of finding a love that some search a lifetime for, thanking Him for the blessing of our 3 children together, thanking Him for Shane's deep love for me, thanking Him for allowing me to love a man with every part of me. At the same time, I am mad because we were just getting our lives started together, mad that all the dreams that we had made together will never come to pass, knowing my soul mate is no longer here with me. Its so not fair that so many take their marriage for granted. When Shane and I said our vows on that extremely hot May day (no air in Mt. Berry Chapel) we took them very seriously. Although our relationship with God was not near as strong as it is now, we did have one. We spent 6 weeks with our pastor going over those pre-marital things and knew we were doing this in the presence of God. From the moment I met Shane I knew we were suppose to be together, his mom has said we were 2 peas in a pod. I know God had ordained this marriage long before Shane and I were ever even conceived. So today while I am extremely miserable being separated from Shane in this life, knowing half of me is longer here, I will celebrate the love, memories, and blessings that we shared for such a short time. I love Shane more today than I did that day 14 years ago. We may have said "until death do us part" but I will never be apart from Shane, his love is with me every moment. If I could quote a friend, "every day that passes is one day closer to being with Shane again." Oh, how I can't wait so that I will never be separated again from him and my Heavenly Father. Happy Anniversary Shane, I love you, Deedeebo

note: when I planned my wedding the song "Because You Loved Me" was fairly new, we was part of our ceremony. You can listen to it on my playlist. Now when I hear the words it means so much more. I am who I am because Shane loved/loves me.